Lost in thoughts

Gambar yang Mengundang Kontroversi

2010-04-04T20:42:00.001-07:00

Nak tengok sangat khann..nah, amik!

Komen please!

Ayayayayaaaaiiiii.....(i'm in deep shit erm well..literally la)

2010-04-01T00:12:00.000-07:00

The day I dread has arrived.

The day where the picture of Hisham and me, urmm, in a pose yang aku sendiri malu. And please, jangan fikir yang bukan-bukan ohkay. In that pic, we were directed to pose dekat2. AArggghh..regret la amik gambar tuh.I'm not like dat laaa...Mesti orang dah fikir bukan2 pasal aku kan????Daymnnnnn...

The story is like this,

We were directed by his boss to pose like that, since we are going to get hitch kan kononnye dulu, so she asked or rather directed us to pose macam tu. Like how?You see for urself la kan. Gi naik train rapidkl, and see for urself. He was like practically hugging me. And sebenarnya aku terkejut yang dia rela nak amik picture in that pose. I know to some of you, you may say aku ni kolot, just pose macam tu je. What's the fuss?? Well, NEWSFLASH, NEWSFLASH...Noya memang seorang yang sometimes agak kolot.DAYYYYYMMMMMMMMNNNNN..menyesal la amik gambar tuh. Especially bile aku dah putus tunang ni. And of course, ramai la orang-orang kat office ni yang bertanya whether yang pose macam tu is husband-wife?Well, NEWSFLASH, NEWSFLASH! They are not!In fact, dah tade ape2 connection. ha.

Tapi kan, my mom just laughed after I told her that I am embarassed by the pic. She said it was my past, and if they ask about hisham, just say the truth ah. Well, I'm quite surprised by my mom's reaction!Dia tak marah punnnn...aiyayayaiyayaiiiii!!!!

Tapi mestilah risaukan,sebab sah2 akan ada orang mengata, sebab2nya:
1) Aku pakai tudung, pose dekat2 macam tu
2) He's not my hubby, sekarang ni pulak, dah tade ape2 dgn dia
3) Trains tu dah dibawak merata2 dah niiiii cik senah oiiiiiiiiii

Maluuuuuuuuu....Lepas ni kuar umah nak pakai purdah la cik senah oiiii...

*Tapi kan, I looked good in that pic ah!hahaha..Flawless skin, glowing gitewwww senahhh!!! Sangat vain khannnn??*

Owh..balik ke mode rase guilty dan malu balik nih!

DAY 1 of NO CAFFEINE, NO SWEET FOOD PLEDGE!

2010-03-29T01:02:00.000-07:00

haiyohhh...it's now 4.14 p.m., and I can barely open my eyes. Today is the 1st day of my no caffeine, no sweet food day. And so far, I haven't drink any drinks containing caffeine - Coffee, nescafe, but erm...a bit of root beer this morning. (Just a sip!)Hehe.

Regarding the sweet food, I failed to restraint myself from eating that darn Oreos!!!!Daymmmnnnn!!!!!Get them away from meeeeeee.....

However, I'm proud of myself - for I have beginning to stick to the "Only Drink Green Tea the Whole Day Routine". Ha, ambik ko!Nak gi toiletttt je dah nihhhh!!!

Maynnnn...I need something to chewwwww...Nak tertido dah niii..And the fact that it's raining heavily outside won't help me eitherrrrr...

I need my caffeine fixxxxx!!!!

10 things (and more!) I Hate/Dislike/Make Me Annoyed (Part 1)

2010-03-21T08:48:00.000-07:00

I am in the midst of marah/bengang/upset.Tgh rasa macam ni, tapi dgr lagu Robbie Williams - "She's The One".How inappropriate!Jap, nak tukar lagu ah."If I Were a Boy" bole?Hmmmm..tanak ah.Tukar,tukar."Tristania" - by Nightwish,bole?Tanak ah. Lagu macam seram.Dah la duk sorang2 ni.Okay ah, "Learn to Fly" - Foo Fighters (yeah, lagu lama, i know. Tapi tonite I fell like listening to Foo Fighters.Dunno why).

Ohkay..Take a deep breath first. Yes. Feel a bit calm now.

Now, now. Let me list 10 things and more of the things/situation/people that i dislike/annoyed. I was inspired to list this because I feel kinda annoyed just now. Tapi, please take note that this post is not meant to diss or related to anybody. General saja nih. So, if any of you terasa dengan post kali ni. Thousand apologies!

1) Dislike/Annoyed when people ignore/do not pay attention to what you are saying - Important things lagi tuh!
Yup. It is not easy for me to talk about my emotions (talk is satu hal, tulis dalam blog is another hal yang lain), or matters yang berkaitan dengan future. Call it EGO, or wuteva you want,but I find it hard to express how I feel, without the fear of being laughed at or ignored. And look what happened.Tu pasal malas nak cakap.Tengah semangat cakap nih, pegi pulak pay attention to benda lain. Fine. Go ahead.Talk to the hand esok ye.

2) Punctuality
Yes, I may sound like a HR staff talking bout punctuality,but no, this is not only related to work, but also other people's time. Yes, you may have all the time in the world to get yourself ready and all, but please, if it does not involving other people's time then by all means,SILAKAN. But if it involves with MY time, then please be more considerate of the effort that I take to be punctual;on time. Please take your calculator and sum it up for me please, I take about 10 - 15 minutes for shower, then 10 - 15 minutes for prayer, another 10 minutes to iron my pants+shirt+tudung, another 15 minutes for make up, and 5 - 6 minutes to wear the clothes that I have ironed. Yeah, so what if i take 15 minutes for make up saja. Ingat senang ke nak ratakan all those liquids and powders tu. Hah! Tapi I still can be on time. Macamana tu?

3)Tak Faham Bahasa

Adoi. Tak faham bahasa Melayu ke, ke nak I speak in English?Ke Tamil? If i said I cannot make it, that means I cannot make it la. If I said I cannot go, that means I cannot go la. It is sooooooooo simple.But if you are as cute as TYSON BECKFORD, then pass.*Drool*

4) Pemalas

I am not perfect pun, tapi at least jangan la malas sangat kan. Enough said. Tapi kan, ni dah macam out of the topic sikit kan, make some effort to be more presentable kan. First impression sangat penting ohkay (now I sounded like Oprah dah, or macam Dr. Fadzillah Kamsah). Tapi abah pun pernah said to us, be presentable! Jaga image! Being raised by abah, an ex-army, discipline kuat..He taught us adik beradik to be presentable, jangan selekeh! And sampai sekarang, dah terbiasa. I don't know bout my other siblings, but I really take the extra mile, extra effort, to look good and to smell good! No need to buy branded stuff, just beli yang ada kat pharmacy is enough. Trust me, barang-barang yang ada kat pharmacy tu pun ada yang bagus-bagus ye.

5) Melambat-lambatkan Solat/Tak Solat Langsung

Ni bole letak dalam top of the list la. Tapi takpe. Malas nak edit balik.First question, kenapa tak nak solat?Dah tau solat tu wajib, and berdosa if tak buat, tapi stiiiiillll tak nak buat. It is still not too late to start solat. If rasa macam berat sangat nak solat penuh (try la solat penuh), start dulu dengan perform solat 2-3 waktu. Then slowly buat penuh.Tak takut ke balasan esok-esok?Rata-rata sekarang dah ada surau disediakan. So, on what reason do you stand on for not performing solat?????

Lagi satu, lambat tunaikan solat. I admit that, once in a while, this happened to me too, and I'm still trying to improve myself. I will be mad and frustrated at myself for doing this, but sometimes, tak dapat nak elakkan. But InsyaAllah, tengah try ni, to tidak melambat-lambatkan solat. Chaiyuuukkkkk Noya!!!

And for 6th points onwards, to be continued.....

Bengong!

2010-03-18T09:50:00.000-07:00

Baru siang tadi, I just realized that aku sangat la ketinggalan zaman!

Why??

Well, macam ni..Pagi td I went for a product briefing dgn GM division aku, so, as usual, I brought my planner and notebook together. While listening to the Ah Pek (hahaha!) punye presentation, aku belek2 planner tu, al-maklumla..dah lama tak belek2 planner tu. Dalam planner tu, ada macam2 notes yang aku tulis,contohnya:

1) My monthly budget - sundries, kutu, hutang, etc, etc

2) Weekly Planning untuk keje - Nak buat ape for that week

3) Bday dates siblings, friends, and tak ketinggalan - my ex-tunang punye bday date (well, what do ya expect, planner tu utk 2009, uoll!!!). Owh, today bday dia. Sempat gak la wished happy bday kat dia. But no presents. Yup.

4) Yang paling nostalgik - part where aku tulis barang2 hantaran yang kitorang plan nk beli and dah beli, names of caterers, budget, theme color and whatnots.

5) Kat calendar punye section - Proposed dates for nikah, sanding and all.(Hah!)

Lepas tu, ada plak receipt booking baju pengantin kat celah2 pocket planner tu! Blur kejap, sejak bila pulak ada receipt tu ah?Bukan dah bagi kat Hisham ke?Ntah!

Anywayyysss...Mula2 ingatkan nak throw away je the planner,tapi macam sayang pulak. Sbb lawa. And colour kulit planner tu my favourite colour - metallic purple ye. Bukan sebab of the memories or notes yang ada dalam tu, tapi sebab dia lawa, and agak mahal gak la harga dia dulu.He he.

Tapi, takpe la kan. Simpan je la kot planner tuh. Takde sape nak marah kan? *wink*

High Maintenance????

2010-03-18T02:48:00.000-07:00

This matter has been in my mind for quite awhile.High maintenance kah aku?

Does membeli barang2 yang berkualiti (berkualiti sangatla kan) can be considered as high maintenance?

Or membeli lens (semakin addicted to contact lens ye) setiap 2 bulan boleh dikira as high maintenance?

When i buy things, I prefer if the stuff yang nampak classy, meaning, yang tak akan run out of season sampai bila-bila. Walaupun mahal sikit, tapi berbaloi,sebab benda tu tak out of season..Betul tak? And I'm proud to say that I'm not a fashion victim, because when i buy stuff (clothes, shoes, etc, etc), I will buy it based on the functionality of that particular stuff.

Actually, yang made merapu about high maintenance ni is because my "kembar" at the office told me that, masa mula2 kenal dulu, based on first impression, I looked like someone yang susah untuk di'maintain'.Senang cerita, high maintenance la kan.The idea is quite amusing gak, sebab I never thought myself in that way.It's interesting to know other people's opinion, especially when it is regarding you.

So, what say you about me?I would like to know more....

Wake Me Up When September Ends

2010-03-03T21:45:00.000-08:00

It's hard to explain what I feel rite now...partly due to because of abah's demise, and partly because I'm practically starving now. You see, I'm at the office now, haven't had the appetite to eat, and my partner in crime went out to have lunch with her friend today. It's good to not have the appetite, since I have gained weight recently(agaknye la, my thighs ni dah macam berlaga dah bila berjalan). Women and complaints and whinings! Tak sudah2! =P

Recently, lepas satu, satu bende timbul. One of them, my engagement. Well, what about it?I called it quits. No more. Nope. For real. Officially. A hasty decision?Nope.Because of third party?Nope.Tidak.Nehi. Takde sesapa yang trigger aku untuk buat decision ni.

It started when i dreamt about my engagement ring patah into two...

Tapi at that time aku tak gaduh ke ape dengan dia. In fact, time tu kitorang macam biase pegi beli barang hantaran semua. Bile aku dah mimpi macam tu, I started to question myself, ape makna mimpi ni semua?Is is just a dream, or is it a sign?So, to satisfy my curiosity, aku mintak tolong Allah. How? Buat solat sunat istikharah. A friend of mine, she said that the petunjuk/s tak datang in a form of mimpi saja, tapi maybe datang dalam bentuk gerak hati, or perhaps dalam bentuk respons dari orang sekeliling. I didn't dream anything on the nite I did the prayer, tapi on the nite after the prayer.(Bole terima ke?).. In that dream, I bring a man to meet my mom, and my mom alone je..(at that time, I didn't know where abah is, and come to think of it, perhaps is it also a sign that abah takde?Wallahu a'lam).

And I also told my mom about the dream - the ring, and she told me at first that it may be a bad sign, but after a while, she told me to just forget about it (tapi gaya macam tak convincing je cara mak cakap tu, as if she was just trying to calm me down. I noticed her face macam worried gak at that time, but I just kept quiet.)

Then, somehow after I did the prayers, I got the courage to tell him to call it quits...

And bermulalah a chapter or a series of hari-hari di mana mata aku bengkak, 'hujan non-stop' and suprisingly, abah together with my siblings sokong my decision. And yang buat aku sedih is, abah told me that he loved me very much, and couldn't bear seeing me sad. How, oh how, we always take parents for granted kan. Bile dah diorang dah takde, baru rase sangat kehilangan diorang. *sigh* And now, aku dah officially not engaged to sesiapa pun.

Ada rasa menyesal ke?.....

Nope. More to kesian, and I wish that aku tak perlu nak sakitkan hati Hisham, or his family..For his family treated me like I'm one of them. I wish that Hisham tak perlu nak endure all of these, tapi tu la, who are we to foresee semua benda-benda ni kan? Just leave it to Allah, and tawakkal. And mintak-mintak aku tak perlu nak sakitkan hati sesiapa lagi. Amin. (Rasa guilty sebenarnya, sebab terpaksa susahkan my brothers - Along and Angah, thank you so much! Malu sebenarnya. Because of me, diorang have to go to his house and settle this matter. And I'm sorry too.)

Okay, putus tunang punye matter aside....

Sekarang ni, yang nak kene get over ni, rase sedih and incomplete,lepas abah dah takde. At times, rase sedih ni bole tolak tepi. Tapi bile datang masa yang I miss him sangat sangat sangat sangattttttttt,I can't help but cry. Tapi nangis sorang-sorang je dalam bilik, tak nak mak nampak, sebab if mak nampak...I know she will be sad too. Last few days, I cried gile babas inside my room, after I sedekahkan Surah Yassin to abah. The next day, pegi keje dengan mata bengkak. Yerp. I don't care if people stare at my eyes ke ape. They say, this thing usually takes time.....Takpe la..tunggu je la.

Juz Buzz Off!

2009-04-14T01:51:00.000-07:00

Keep your opinion to urself.

I don't need them.

I don't value them.

If it's coming from u. Just keep it to urself.

"Macam ibu ketam yang ajar anak2 dia macamana nak jalan"

Hidup ko tenteram sgt ke?

Before giving advises, tgk diri sendiri dulu. Tu je aku mintak.

Tenkiu very much kerana tak sesakkan hidup aku.

Hadapi Dengan Senyuman

2009-03-24T01:16:00.000-07:00

Hadapi dengan senyuman,
Semua yang terjadi,
Biar terjadi,
Hadapi..Dengan tenang jiwa,
Semua kan baik-baik saja,

Bila ketetapan Tuhan,
Sudah ditetapkan,
Tetaplah sudah....

Yes, I'm trying just to do that. It's hard, especially if in front of you, your sister and your 5th and 6th brothers are crying. It's hard to stop the tears from flowing. Even now, when I'm typing this entry, I can feel my eyes started to water.

You see, my dad went for medical check up at SJMC yesterday. We were worried because he just couldn't stop coughing, so we sent him there. After analyzing the x-ray image of my dad's lung, the doctor said to my sister that she was not happy with the outcome and she's afraid that my dad may either have TB or lung cancer. The latter makes me cringe!Cancer??Please Dear God, no. To make matters worse, my sister broke out crying when she called me. Knowing me, I couldn't control myself and cried too. Yes, at the office, in front of my officemate. With runny nose, and mascara+tear streaked face, I just sit my place and listened to my sister. It was heartbreaking. It never crossed our minds that one of my parents will get cancer. Although the doctor still hasn't confirmed the outcome of the analysis yet, but still, he's my dad..and yeah, he can be grumpy sometimes..but he's my dad.

And just now, my 2nd brother sent me an SMS (I think each of us receives the SMS), reminding the to bear the hospital bills together and not to leave the burden of paying the bills. Not that she complaints, but I agree with my 2nd brother. We have to share the burden. After i finished reading the SMS, I realized something, I'm no longer the baby girl of Haji Mahmud and Hajah Azizah. Yeah, I'm still the youngest, but no longer the baby girl yang kecik dan tak perlu dibebankan dengan responsibility untuk tanggung kos ubat and hospitalization of my parents. Ada gak rase sedih, bile kenangkan yang my parents dah uzur and they are no longer kuat and healthy as before. So, apa lagi benda yang I should have done to them yang aku belum buat? Better do now than regret it later.

Same goes to you, while your parents are still around.

Hanjing Betul!

2009-02-04T16:56:00.001-08:00

Hanjing betul tau!

Daripada boleh buat keje dgn cepat, dah jadi lambat!
Sebab ape, sebab kene buat keje gune open office (dia ni ala-ala microsoft office gak la), tapi bodow la..
Company aku tukar dari microsoft word ke open office ni, sbb license nak gune software ni murah, tak mcm microsoft office tu. Tapiiiiiiii..kalau nak tukar ke open office ke, takde office ke, bagi la training dulu, sikit pun jadi la..ni takde!Geram betul!Pagi ni je dah berbakul-bakul sumpah seranah telah aku lemparkan kepada mouse, PC dan keyboard aku. Aku tau tu bukan salah mereka, tapi maafla ye. Dengan keadaan kesihatan yang tidak mengizinkan, ditambah pula dengan stress nak organize Safety and Health Campaign 16 February - 25 February ni, maka aku agak malas nak berinteraksi lebih2 dgn bende2 bernyawa yang boleh bercakap, makan dan tido. Mana nak cari trainer untuk senamrobik lagi (aku siap buat event senamrobik lagi), nak cari souvenier lagi, nak organize blood donation lagi, nak organize PA system lagi, nak organize letak meja mana lagi, nak organize soalan utk quizzes lagi....Hadoiii...Secara tidak langsung, muka aku juga menjadi mangsa stress.Mana taknye, petang, balik keje, tgk muka, pastu nampak la white head, black head dan sespesies dengannya!Muka aku dah bertompok2 dek kesan picitan jerawat!Hah!
Sekarang ni, balik rumah je tido, balik rumah je tido!Rase macam tade energy langsung!Nak dijadikan cerite, baru2 ni ade abang ni jual kopi susu kambing,dia cakap kopi ni baik la, bagi energy. So aku pun try la, sebab nak hilangkan rase letih dan tak semangat tu....Mula2 rase kopi tu, okay la,tapi bile dah telan, maaaaaakkkk aiiiii!..rase kambing!Ehem,correction!Rase macam baru sahaja telan air steak kambing!Hahahahaha..
Tapi skrg ni dah bole telan la..dah lali kot.~blek!~

Tapi memangla bulan lepas dan bulan ni banyak mencabar kesabaran mental dan fizikal aku. Mana tak nya, bulan lepas PC aku kene virus...Virus ape? Hello kitty ye...sedap betul nama awak virus!Hah!..PC aku kene reformat balik dan selama CPU aku diambil oleh staf IT Dept, hari-hari aku diisi dengan mengadap muka di screen computer yang gelap, sambil2 membetulkan tudung dan if aku dah bosan tengok muka sendiri, aku pun memulakan tugas dengan menulis secara manual ohkayyyyy....Kembali ke zaman paleolitik gitewwwww...~Hiks~
Pasal kesihatan yang tak mengizinkan tu, my sister got sick last week, and skrg pun dia still blum fully recovered. So, disebabkan aku share satu bilik dgn dia, aku pun dah terkene jangkitan virus dia, maka serobong asap aku kembali tersumbat!Tension betul.Aku tak sabar aku nak tunggu event nih habis, so that aku boleh cuti. Insya-Allah, 16 - 18 March, kitorang akan pergi ke Langkawi, shopppiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinggggggggggggggggggg!!!..Maka terpaksa la aku mengikat perut bulan ini(dah ikat perut pun duit habis gak..kihkihkih..And kawan2, do not try to persuade me to join uoll pegi holiday jauh2 ye, coz i cannot join u, and will never be jika aku still berada under the same roof with my parents!Remember that!And don't ask me again.Penat aku nak jawab soklan korang la..tak paham2..

With that, I end my tazkirah with Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakaaaatuh!
Yang baik datang dari Allah, dan yang buruk itu datangnya dari saya....

Bear With Me, Will Ya?

2009-01-19T00:28:00.000-08:00

Imagine this:

You are having a good time at a party, his family members adore you, and so do you.

Towards the end of the party, you think that the party is a success, and you think you have proven to them that you can be a part of them.

You went home, all smiling...

But not until you open you mouth and starts talking about what you think the both of you should do at the party.

And then then misunderstanding begun..

You see, everytime I want to be an honest person, there will be consequences awaits. And always, I say always, the consequences turn out to be a negative one.

Should I just pretend that everything is okay?

Should I just keep it to myself?

O the price I have to pay for being honest!

I can't help it if I am the fussy type. I can't help if I need to blurt every little things that I am not satisfied with.

I need to let it all out, for I do not have anymore available space left in my mind.

Essential Things in My Handbags

2009-01-15T23:31:00.000-08:00

Lately I have lost interest with the stuff that are in my make up bag (together with the bag!)

My make up bag is very simple, just a sort of a pouch kind of bag, black velvet and agak comot la. Dgn kesan bedak and lisptick di dalam and luar. (Shows how 'rajin' I am when it comes to cleaning up the bag!)

Sempena dengan kedatangan tahun baru ni, I thought I want to change the colour of the lipsticks that I usually wear. You see, I usually opt for something that are more natural and nude. This year, I will try colours which are brighter that the ones that I usually wear. For the remaining stuff that I have in that bag, at first I thought that I should just ditch them. Tapi mcm membazir la pulak kan. So anybody, siape-siape yang rase-rase nak tambahkan collection make up, boleh take mine. But starting from next month ye, sebab I belum gaji lagi..nak beli new make ups pun belum ade duit lagi.Hehehe...

List of stuff yang hendak didermakan:

1) Eye Shadow In 2 It - Metallic Green and Metallic Yellow

2) Lipstick - Buff Colour - Maybelline

3) Lipstick - Pale Pink - Averine

4) Eyeshadow - Metallic Green - L'oreal

5) Eyeshadow - Metallic Purple - L'oreal

Since we are now in the midst of boycotting products of U.S. origin, I will not purchase make ups from Maybelline and L'Oreal. Bobbi Brown and Friends tu takde la nak beli kan, sebab tak mampu..hehehhe..

And, remind me not to buy Clinique's perfume anymore. In fact, I have beralih ke perfume yang takde brand, from Paris. My brother's friend bought them from France. Okay la bau dia. And quite cheap. RM70 je.

And cakap pasal boycott (lari dari topic sekejap), I have made an effort to check on the origin of my contact lens. Sekaaaliiiiii, tersesat la pulak...Bukannye nak cari origin, tapi duk try colour mana yang sesuai dgn skin colour and all...Hahahaha..terpesong sungguh! You see, kat Freshlook punye site, kite boleh paste gambar kite kat situ and try on virtually contact lens, any colour. For those yang dah pernah try this virtual thing kat freshlook ni, mesti engkorang ckp aku jakun kan. Tapiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.......bende virtual thing ni seronok untuk mendistractkan anda dari kebosanan ofis yang mcm environmentnya mcm bilik mayat!Hah!

And berbalik kepada topik kite hari ni,

Other essential stuff yang patut ada and semestinya ada dalam my handbag (besides purse and handphone la):

1)Kalau takde bag make up tu, bawak concealer, nude coloured lipstick, eyeliner and mascara sudah mencukupi.

2) Perfume

3) Safety Pins (Sgt berguna uolls!)

4) Chewing gum (sgt berguna untuk dikunyah selepas anda baru sahaja had lauk petai for lunch!)

5) Spray hidung!Hehe..Sgt berguna jika hidung saya tiba-tiba tersumbat

6) Small notebook

7) Koyok - Red Chilli Plaster - Great for back aches and period cramps!Panasssss....

I have read somewhere in magazines ke ape tah, that the contents in your handbag shows the real you. Or is it purse? Hah..Lupe..

But one thing for sure is that, bile orang lain tgk the keadaan in my handbag - Ketidak susunan barang-barang disamping receipts yang tah dari mana, menunjukkan bahawa saya seorang yang tidak teratur.

Well, kadang-kadang kot je yang tak teratur..hehehe..In denial, always.

2009-01-12T00:13:00.000-08:00

I'm at the office; bored and slightly irritated at my boss. I wish I could paint his face like those 2 blokes up there!

You see, my boss seldom catches flu or fever. Last year, as far i remember, he only took 2 days of MC for the rest of the 2008! Darn!

I'm in no mood to do my work.

I kept thinking bout redecorating my bedroom.

How about this one?

The one on the left?

Or on the right?I'm bored laaa......Helpppp..

2009-01-07T21:48:00.000-08:00

What has gotten into me lately eh?

I cried when i watched Bolt (the part where the girl reminisce the moments she shared with Bolt). Why i cried? Because i missed my cats, Tom, Duke, Salem and Boboy. They were good cats, u know, and cute too..

Boboy was a Persian cat, with white fur, left eye was green and the other was blue. Every morning, he would follow me to the door (as I had to open the lock before going to school) and he will wait for me at the door again when I came home from school. We played hide and seek, and would 'chase' me. One morning, when i was preparing myself for school, I heard dogs barking like mad outside of my house and turn out to be they were barking at Boboy. Boboy was bitten by those damn dogs. He even hissed at me when i tried to take him out from under the car (he hid under the car, for safety). When i came home from school, I found out he died. We all cried that day (and a couple days later).

About the rest, well, Duke (white Persian cat) died after he was hit by a car, in front of my house, Salem (Black Persian cat) - due to kidney malfunction, and Tom (tabby cat) - car accident.

I guess anybody who has or used to have pets will surely touched or maybe sad when they watched Bolt.

Hmmm....

She's Back!!!!

2008-12-22T07:30:00.000-08:00

Goshhh!!She's backkkkkkk...Darn!Who's back????
The paranoid me la.She's back.Setelah lama merantau..She succeeded in finding me. Again.Kat Concorde Shah Alam tadi. Yup! Ape dia buat kat Concorde pun aku tak tau. I thought she had vanished into thin air already, but noooooo...she came back!

It's like this, today,siang tadi, I went to Concorde Shah Alam, to attend a seminar on accident and Occupational Safety and Health Act (OSHA 1994). As usual, they will be talking about accidents at workplace and also kat jalanraya. Aku okay je masa tengok gambar yang boleh dikatakan gross dan menakutkan pasal accident (dgn otak bersepai, badan putus and all..), but then masa balik, tengah drive, suddenly badan aku macam menggigil dan tiba2 teringat pasal accident. And masa sampai kat flyover yang kat golf course tu, terasa macam kereta aku nak masuk dalam tasik golf course tu and aku drowned!Nauzubillah! Ape masalah ni?

Setelah timbang tara dilakukan, I associate this experience dengan terlebih minum kopi. (Bole ke jadi macam nih?). I took 2 cups of coffee today, nak menghilangkan mengantuk. Listening is a hard work! Especially after lunch, when aku dah telan itik panggang, kurma kambing, potato salad, daging masak ape tah, ayam masak ape tah, and cakes. And for tea, aku telah telan drummet ayam and cheese cake yang yummy sungguh!Hah!Gemok la ko lepas nih paraNOYA!

Sepanjang minggu ni aku rasa a bit depressed la. Ada bende yang buat aku depressed, tapi aku taknak tulis dlm blog nih. I think i better keep it to myself. Minggu ni menyaksikan berkurangnya aktiviti joget di atas dance pads and cycling. Frustrating sungguh!

Oh yes, satu lagi..

Recently, ada sorang mamat yang aku ada crush kat dia (masa zaman sekolah menengah dulu) telah me'request' untuk di'add'kan dalam frienster. At first, I was kinda excited,but then aku meluat pulak tengok muka dia. Dari firasat aku, dia ni macam perasan dan poyo. Dia tau dia good looking, and he's proud of it. Hah! I've got news for you mister, ko dah tak handsome dah. And the sight of you dah tak buat my heart beats faster dah. Yang buat heart aku beats faster adalah ketika aku naik bicycle, takpun joget tak ingat atas dance pad!Haha...

owh..for the sake of losing weight!

2008-12-02T17:31:00.000-08:00

En. Hisham just bought me the dance pad (PS2) and I have tried dancing on it a couple of times. At first, I thought dancing on the pad is easy, but boy o boy, it was hard! Sakit kepala lutut aku! I think i have chosen the wrong kind of song, mana tak nye, start2 je dah pilih lagu "La Bamba". Laju sungguh lagu tuh!Penat aku nk kejar. I think I looked like a total dork dancing on the pad!Hah! For the time being, I only have 2 dancing DVDs, one is ohkay but the other.....Man! Lagu techno jinjang dari Sg. Way!Hahahaha..tapi hentam sajalah. Asalkan i sweat my ass off and burn all the stubborn bulges.Hah!

For the last 4 days, i have followed strictly on my routine, which is to exercise for at least 30 minutes (tak kira la on the treadmill, the bicycle (I bought the bicycle already, yay!), or the dance pad. But usually after i exercised on the bike, i dance for about 30 minutes more on the dance pad. Kalau tak kurus gak tak tau la..

Wish me luck!

2008-11-27T22:49:00.000-08:00

CT SCAN

Last week was kinda hectic and i haven't had the time to update by blog. I try to summarize practically everything that happened last week and this week.

1) The Guard from Asylum

About this pakcik guard, he waited for me at the maingate the evening after the unforgettable event. U know, he really makes me in a state of trauma, u may say. He reminds me of an Indian boy that kept stalking me when i was in Standard 3.My class was located at the 2nd level, and his class was at the ground level. Right before class started, he will wait for me in front of his class and smiled! Give me the creeps!Yikes! Pasal pakcik guard nih, aku telah mengambil satu langkah berjaga-jaga, iaitu dengan membeli sunglass idaman aku yang besar gedabak yang hampir2 saja menutup pipi aku yang tembam!Hah! Patutnya aku tinted je cermin kereta, tapi what the heck, aku lebih rela beli sunglass.Hakhakhak! Sampai harini, that pakcik mcm tau kot yang aku tak nak layan dia. Come to think of it, baik aku pakai helmet je kan?Mcm dalam rally tuh..hehehe

2) Medical check-up

I was on leave yesterday, sebab nak buat Ct Scan kat KJMC.I was kinda scared, takut2 if ade jumpa ape2 yang abnormal. My appointment was scheduled at 10 and my cayang temankan aku pegi sana. How sweeeeettt!hehe..Anyways, masa nak buat CT scan tu, i have to meniarap and masuk dalam macam terowong tuh. For a second, i felt as though aku ade dalam canon and bile2 masa saja aku akan dilepaskan ke dinding!Hah.Looks like my imagination ran wild again.Masa tgh scan tu, i closed my eyes, because i'm afraid that perhaps (I say perhaps)that the laser or rays might kene my contact lens and thus akan merosakkan lens aku (teori mane la aku dapat ni?). Tapi bile aku dapat film scan tu, i laughed my head off!

Because why?

1st pic : i looked like a goldfish! In black and white lagi! Dgn pipi tembam and mulut yg mancung!Hah!

2nd pic : i looked like a cub si anak harimau!Siap dgn taring and all..hahaha..gmbar ni yg paling kelakar.

3rd pic: I looked like a goldfish yang mempunyai taring. Cool!

So after the doc buat some analysis, he told me not to worry. I do not have polyps, tapi the nasal tissue aku bengkak and i have to take some medication to reduce the swelling. And again, dia masukkan camera inside my left nostril but this time, he sucked all those gooey looking phlegm gune some sort of vacuum. Sgt convenient, especially bile u are too lazy to korek ur hidung.Hihihi!

Mak Su Yang Baik =P

2008-11-18T00:18:00.000-08:00

adakah saya seorang mak su yang baik??i don't know..
But i don't think i am.
To my nephews and nieces (ha ha...mcm la semua org bace blog ni),
I'm sorry.
Everytime i want to open my mouth and talk, i just can't. or couldn't..heck, pegi mampus dgn grammar aku hari ni..*sigh*
You may see me as seorang maksu yang garang or maybe sombong, but the truth is..i'm not.
One of ur makcik (and she's maybe ur mom, hehe), said that i hide diamonds in my mouth. Ha ha.
I'm maybe good only at giving money or gifts or food(bagi duit mase raya je kot, and perhaps kadang2 if you datang to my house), but i really want to have a conversation with you all..
The problem is, rase macam awkward.Like when i try to talk to my eldest brother. Pathetic?yes, i think i am. *sigh*
So please, dear nephews and nieces...help your aunty here. Ha ha

Dah Berapa Lama Kita Lalai?????

2008-11-13T23:47:00.000-08:00

The most beautiful names belong to God, so call on Him thereby. (7:180)Those who believe, and whose hearts find satisfaction in the remembrance of GOD, for without doubt in the remembrance of God do hearts find satisfaction. (13:28)
Allah
The God. The only one Almighty. He alone is worthy of worship.
Al-Mubdi
The Originator. He who creates all creatures initially without matter or model.
Al-Adl
The Just. He who is Equitable.
Al-Mughni
The Enricher. The Sufficer.
Al-Aakhir
The Last.
Al-Muhaymin
The Guardian. He who watches over and protects all things. (Helper in Peril)
Al-Afu
The Pardoner. He who pardons all who sincerely repents.
Al-Muhsi
The Appraiser. He who knows the number of every single thing in existence, even to infinity.
Al-Alim
The Knower of All. He who has full knowledge of all things.
Al-Mu'id
The Restorer. He who recreates His creatures after He has annihilated them.
Al-Ahad
The One. The only one.
Al-Mu'izz
The Bestower of Honors. He who confers honor and dignity.
Al-Awwal
The First.
Al-Mujib
The Responder to Prayer. He who grants the wishes who appeals to him.
Al-Aziz
The Mighty & Strong.
Al-Muqit
The Nourisher. He who gives every creature it's sustenance.
Al-Azeem
The Magnificent. The Most High. He who is Most Splendid.
Al-Muqaddim
The Expediter. He who brings forward whatever He wills (Forewarner).
Al-Badi
The Incomparable. He who is without model or match, and who brings into being worlds of amazing wonder.
Al-Muqsit
The Equitable One. He who does everything with proper balance and harmony.
Al-Ba'ith
The Resurrector. He who brings the dead to life, and raises them from their tombs.
Al-Muqtadir
The Creator of All Power. He who disposes at His will even of the strongest and mightiest of His creatures.
Al-Baqi
The Everlasting One. Eternal (in the future).
Al-Mumit
The Taker of Life. He who creates the death of a living creature.
Al-Bari
The Maker of Order (Skilled Worker). O Evolver who created all things so that each whole and its parts are in perfect conformity and harmony.
Al-Muntaqim
The Avenger. He who justly inflicts upon wrongdoers the punishment they deserve.
Al-Barr
Source of all Goodness. He who treats His servants tolerantly, and whose goodness and kindness are very great indeed.
Al-Musawwir
The Shaper of Beauty. He who designs all things, giving each its particular form and character (Sculptor).
Al-Basir
The All-Seeing. To those who invoke this Name one hundred times between the obligatory and customary prayers in Friday congregation, Allah grants esteem in the eyes of others.
Al-Muta'ali
The Supreme One. He is exalted in every respect, far beyond anything the mind could possibly attribute to His creatures.
Al-Basit
The Reliever (Uncloser). He who releases, letting things expand.
Al-Mutakabbir
The Majestic. He who demonstrates His greatness in all things and in all ways.
Al-Batin
The Hidden One. He who is hidden, concealed.
Al-Mudhill
The Humiliator. He who degrades and abases.
Al-Dhar
The Distresser The Creator of the Harmful. He who creates things that cause pain and injury.
An-Nafi
The Creator of Good. He who creates things that yields advantages and benefit.
Al-Fattah
The Opener. He who opens the solution to all problems and makes things easy.
An-Nur
The Light. He who gives light to all the worlds, who illuminates the faces, minds and hearts of His servants.
Al-Ghaffar
The Forgiving. He who is always ready to forgive.
Al-Qabidh
The Constrictor. He who constricts and restricts.
Al-Ghafur
The Forgiver and Hides Faults.
Al-Qadir
The All Powerful. He who is Able to do what He wills as He wills (Providence).
Al-Ghani
The Rich one. He who is infinitely rich and completely Independent.
Al-Qahhar
The Subduer. He who dominates all things, and prevails upon them to do whatever He wills (Dominant).
Al-Hadi
The Guide. He who provides guidance.
Al-Qawi
The Most Strong.The Possessor of All Strength.
Al-Hafiz
The Preserver. He who guards all creatures in every detail.
Al-Qayyum
The Self-Existing One. He who maintains the heavens, the earth, and everything that exists.
Al-Haiy
The Ever Living One. The living who knows all things and whose strength is sufficient for everything.
Al-Quddus
The Pure One. He who is free from all errors.
Al-Hakim
The Perfectly Wise. He whose every command and action is pure wisdom.
Ar-Rafi'
The Exalter. He who raises up.
Al-Hakam
The Judge. He who judges and makes right prevails.
Ar-Raheem
The All Compassionate. He who acts with extreme kindness.
Al-'Ali
The Highest. The Exalted.
Ar-Rahman
The All Merciful. He who wills goodness and mercy for all His creatures.
Al-Halim
The Forbearing. He who is Most Clement.
Ar-Raqib
The Watchful One.
Al-Hamid
The Praisedworthy. All praise belongs to Him, and who alone do the tongues of all creation laud.
Ar-Rashid
The Righteous Teacher. He who moves all things in accordance with His eternal plan, bringing them without error and with order and wisdom to their ultimate destiny (Unerring).
Al-Haqq
The Truth. He who’s being endures unchangingly.
Ar-Ra'uf
The Kind. He who is very compassionate (Indulgent).
Al-Hasib
The Accounter. He who knows every details.
Ar-Razzaq
The Sustainer. He who provides all things useful to His creatures.
Al-Jabbar
The Compelling. He who repairs all broken thing, and completes that which is incomplete.
As-Sabur
The Patient One. He who is characterized by infinite patience.
Al-Jaleel
The Glorious. He who is Lord of Majesty and Grandeur.
As-Salaam
The Source of Peace. He who frees His servants from all danger.
Al-Jaame
The Gatherer. He who brings together what He wills, when He wills, where He wills.
As-Samad
The Eternal. He who is the only recourse for the ending of need and the removal of affliction.
Al-Kabir
The Greatest. He who supremely great.
As-Sami
The Hearer of All. Allah takes care of all the needs of those who invoke this glorious Name one hundred times.
Al-Karim
The Generous. He whose generosity is most abundant.
Ash-Shahid
The Witness. He who is present everywhere and observes all things.
Al-Khabir
The All Aware. He who has the knowledge of inner & most secret aspects of all things.
Ash-Shakur
The Rewarder of Thankfulness. He who gratefully rewards good deeds (Appreciator).
Al-Khafid
The Abaser. He who brings down, diminishes.
At-Tawwab
The Acceptor to Repentance. He who is ever ready to accept repentance and to forgive sins (Relenting).
Al-Khaliq
The Creator. He who brings from non-being into being, creating all things in such a way that He determines their existence and the conditions and events they are to experience.
Al-Vakil
The Trustee / Guardian. He who manages the affairs of those who duly commit them to His charge, and who looks after them better than they could themselves.
Al-Latif
The Subtle One. He who knows the minutest subtleties of all things.
Al-Vali
The Protecting Friend. He who is a nearest friend to His good servants.
Al-Majid
The Majestic One. He whose glory is most great and most high.
Al-Wahhab
The Giver of All. He who constantly bestows blessings of every kind.
Al-Ma'jid
The Glorious. He, whose dignity and glory are most great, and whose generosity and munificence are bountiful.
Al-Wahid
The Unique. He who is Single, absolutely without partner or equal in His Essence, Attributes, Actions, Names and Decrees.
Al-Malik
The Absolute Ruler. The Ruler of the entire universe (King of Kings).
Al-Wajid
The Finder. He who finds what He wishes when He wishes (Perceiving).
Malik-ul-Mulk
The Owner of All. The King of the Kingdom.
Al-Wadud
The Loving One. He who loves His good servants, and bestows his compassion upon them.
Al-Mani'
The Preventer of Harm. The Withholder.
Al-Wali
The Governor. The Protecting Friend. He who administers this vast universe and all its passing phenomena.
Al-Momin
The Inspirer of Faith. He who awakes the light of faith in our hearts.
Al-Wasi'
The All Comprehending. He who has limitless capacity and abundance.
Al-Mateen
The Firm. He who is very steadfast.
Al-Warith
The Inheritor of All. He who is the Real Owner of all riches.
Al-Muhyi
The Giver of Life. He who confers life, gives vitality, revives.
Az-Zahir
The Manifest One. He who is Evident.
Al-Mu'akhkhir
The Delayer. He who sets back or delays whatever He wills.
Zal-Jalali-Wal-Ikram
The Lord of Majesty and Bounty. He who possesses both greatness and gracious magnanimity.

i am shaking now..
tersedar while tgh dgr lagu nayid asmaul husna..
goose bumps still ade kat tgn...
aku lalai lagiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii....
berapa lama kita nak lalai????????
berapa lama kita baru nak sedar??????????

Allahu Akbaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!

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Kopi O Kaw and Minyak Cap Kapak

2008-11-12T01:11:00.000-08:00

Those two things have been my faithful companion eversince i started working in Safety and Health Dept. These two things have again proven their faithfulness when this morning, a disaster happened!

You know...I have never imagine such incident will occur to me..not until this morning.

Imagine this:
A pakcik (well, i want to think of him as a pakcik, not as an abang...because i think he deserves it!)
Tahan ur car at the guardhouse at the entrace of the place where you work
And give u his phone number...for what reason?You know what la!!!!
Nak berkenalan!

I was like.....ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww...geli siallllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll!!!!!

imagine that!

Actually, it started from yesterday petang, masa nak balik, he tahan kereta aku and everybody else kat dpn and belakang kereta aku (it's a routine, nak check boot kereta). And then suddenly dia mintak my phone number. Then i asked him, for what-lah? Then dia cakap bagi la, and suruh aku tunggu jap. tapi instead of tunggu macam org bodow kat situ, aku pecut lari!hahahaa...tapiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii...pg nih dia tunggu aku pulakkkkk....
hooooooooooooooooooooo...apela nasib mcm nih....tolonggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

Ditch the Pills, I Say....(Part II)

2008-11-11T21:31:00.000-08:00

Well, i just came back from KJMC and all went well today.
I arrived at the hospital around 10.10 a.m. (mentangla2 hospital dekat dgn ofis, sesuka hati saje dtg lambat!). Then i went to 1st floor and waited. I'm surprised on how calm i was at that time, despite the stories that i heard from those yang pernah pegi buat check up. When i went in, i talked to the doc (his name is Dr. Loganathan Athanari, nice bloke i tell you ---> made me tambah2 calm) about the flu, the blocked nose, allergy to seafood, the asthma, etc etc. Then i sat on another special kind of chair (yg mcm kat dentist tu) and the doc started to wear this hat yang ada lampu skali tu, and he suluh my throat. Then he sprayed somekind of fluid inside both nostrils and i tellll youuuuu....Pahit betul ubat tuh!Yuckk!!!The reason why he sprayed that thing into my nostrils was because dia nak kebaskan my hidung and throat, so that he can insert a tube with a camera inside my nose. He asked me to calm down, and again, i' m suprised at how well i behave at that moment!hah!

Then bermulalah a journey to lubang2 yang berair..Lubang Hidungku!Tengok kat tv tuhhhhhh...hihihihi..rase weird gak bile dia insert camera tu, tapi tak sakit, just rase weird. Tengok kat my left nostril, some of the tissues dah membengkak,tapi no signs of polyps yet. I saw some gooey looking phlegm di celah2 tissue tu, tapi takdelah yucky sgt. And i try not to think to of tube so much, because sometimes ade skit rase mcm sakit la.Tapi tak sakit sgt.Kene gigit dgn semut lg sakit! Next, dia masukkan tube tu ke my right nostril.Tapi nostril yang sebelah kanan ni nmpak mcm sempit skit, the doc said that tulang hidung tu senget ke kanan skit. Waaaaa..mcm tu pun bole eh?hihihi..The journey continued, kali ni lebih dalam. Tapi ade satu section where the doc said that dia suspect ade polyps. Tapi aku tak bole differentiate between polyps dgn tissues yg swollen. After that the doc asked me to come again another 2 weeks and after that he will decide whether i need CT scan or not. For the time being, aku kene mkn ubat and spray je. Annnnnnddddddd no seafood and dusty environment.Hah! A good reason to escape from kemas rumah..hihihi

Tapi kan, sedey la gi check up sorang2.... =(

DITCH THE PILLS, I SAY.....

2008-11-10T22:06:00.000-08:00

I'm proud of myself, really..because i have made an appointment with the ENT at KJMC hospital (baru appointment je). Nevertheless, if it comes from a grown woman of 26 years of age yang takut nak jumpa doc, then it can be considered as satu achievement yg membanggakan right?Yes Sir!hah! My appointment with the specialist is scheduled at 10 a.m. tomorrow. And i'm going there by myself, alone. The panel clinic doctor said that most probably i have polyps in my left nostril. The polyps in my nostril looks more or less like the pic above. It's kinda hard to breathe when i have flu, like now. One of my officemate, she had similar problem like mine before, and she had to undergo a minor surgery, to remove the polyps. Perhaps i should ask the doc to perform reconstructive surgery as well kan?Buat hidung aku lagi mancung!hakhakhak..u wish! Astaghfirullah...tak bersyukur betul kan?...hehehe..gurau je. If aku kene operate, jgn lupe dtg visit aku ye...bwk donut J.CO flavor mango dgn yg strawberry tu ye. Time kasih. =)

Ohkay, polyps matter aside... I have scheduled my activities sepanjang minggu ni and below are the activities yang i planned to do:

1) Pegi Plaza Alam Sentral (esok)--> Survey and hopefully dapat order banner yang murah for the workshop thingy

2) Plaza lama Sentral (esok)---> Survey souvenier for the workshop

3) Gunting Rambut (Friday masa lunch hour)

4) Tempah baju (lunch hour hari khamis)

5) Survey harga bicycle yang utk exercise tu..hihihi

KRA or KERA?

2008-11-10T00:08:00.000-08:00

I am in the middle of doing this KRA thing (Key Responsible Area) for my dept,and yet i still want to write sumthin here. Mmg dasar sah tangan gatal!
Actually last weekend, my family and i went to PD and to my disappoinment, the beach was dirty and the water...yuck!..i cringe when i think of dipping my feet in the water!I tell you....malaysians mmg pengotor! Bole ade bra lagi dlm air tuh!Cissss.....Dah buat 'projek', bole pulak tinggalkan bra dlm laut!oh,for your info, kitorang tinggal kat Ancasa Suite and Resort. I will upload the pics later ya.
The water is one thing, another thing is my nose. Why? Serombong i dah tersumbat uoal!!!Imagine, kat tepi laut dalam cuaca panas tu pun dia boleh nak tersumbat lagi tuh! Remind me to make an appointment with KJMC ENT,ohkay,for i couldn't stand sleepless nights any longer..I suffer, i tell you....Breathe thru my mouth, and end up getting my perut bloated!! And the next day, i terkentut2 kat ofis!(and dengan bangganya announce kat officemate!How appropriate!)Ha ha..

Serombong tersumbat aside...yg buat i happy tibe2 adalah apabila kakak secretary dept i announce yang my boss will be on leave smpai Friday!Yeay!!!!Enjoy katak laa..Remind me to start schedule my activities semasa ketiadaan bos saya esok ye. Tenkiu..

The insane one - who? yeah, you..

2008-11-06T23:31:00.000-08:00

i am now in that PMS mode - again...i hate it when i'm in this situation.

here i am, writing on my blog (which has not been updated since God knows when!), when i should be doing my statistics work(yawn!) and updating on the namelist for the workshop thingy. hah!

actually, my niece inspired me to write again (after being a blog stalker for such a looooooonnggg time!). Thanks By!hihihi...

I must keep on reminding myself not to do these below mentioned stuff whenever i'm in the PMS mode:

1) talk to people

2) go anywhere near food!

Ha ha.